I’ve Found It.

I like relationships because they’ve always been so different from the one before. Every time I think about how I’m feeling, it’s always bigger and better than what it was with the last guy. I don’t think there’s any beating this.

We had a conversation last night about how things happen because they were meant to happen. He said something along the lines of no matter what we decide to do to change the course we’re on, it doesn’t matter ’cause that was always the choice we were going to make. So the things we do were always going to be done. The choices we make were always going to be made.

I started thinking about that at work today and kind of fell in love with the idea. I feel this way because I was always going to feel this way. This is happening because it was always going to happen. This was always going to be exactly what it is.

This was always going to happen.
I like that thought. It’s very comforting.

I’m happy. & in 3 weeks I’ll be even happier.

Is It Just Me

Or do we kind of have mini interpersonal relationships with the people we drive next to on the highway ?

How weird is it to think that we spend so much time on the road with other cars. Other people doing, most likely, the exact same thing we are. Yet we don’t know those people. They have their own lives. Their own families. Their own relationships. Their own personal drama. We don’t know them. Chances are our paths have not crossed. Yet we are both on this highway. We keep in check with each other. We are constantly aware of their presence.

That’s when I begin to wonder what kinds of lives they lead. What kind of jobs do they have. How are their relationships with their kids? What if they’ve found their fairy tale, their dream come true. Maybe they’re as happy as they can possibly be.

I feel as if I get to know these people, and I am sad to see them go. I usually wish them the best of luck.

I know it’s all in my head but it definitely makes me much more aware of the world we live in.

Today was kind of perfect :)

I woke up in a great mood, took my time getting ready. Packed. Went to work, which was over before I knew it. I finally got cashwrap training so now I can rock that too. I’m really enjoying working at GAP. It’s a great company and the people I work with are awesome :D

I opted out of getting Clay’r today simply because she would more or less have to stay at the house in my room the whole time I’m in Kitsap and that’s not fair to her. Instead, I’ll get her Friday or Saturday and have her hopefully till the middle of next week. She’s my baby girl.

The drive was pretty chill, it was really nice out so that made it more tolerable. I had to take my car to Firestone but that’s OK. Bre picked me up and we went out to eat at Olive Garden (tradition) and had the usual (ziti al forno with salad. I get a belini iced tea and she switches it up). Then we went and bought tickets for Bad Teacher and headed to Barnes & Noble (another tradition) to chill until the movie started. I think the only traditions we didn’t fulfill today were Global Bean and Dancing Brush. We will have to rectify that, but we got time. The movie was hilarious, by the way.

Finally got home and saw my baby Goose, threw the ball for a while, then came in and did this. Oh did I mention that I am really really looking forward to Friday? Those plans are in the making as we speak. :)  <- that’s pretty much all I have to say about it.

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Pandora has an eerie way of picking up on my mood and playing the appropriate songs. God damn, whoever created Pandora (Let’s Google It) is a genius. Apparently it’s some guy named Tim. They’ve just gone on the New York Stock Exchange  or however that is usually phrased. $16 a share. I’m thinking that would be a good investment. They made $138 million in the 2011 fiscal year with only $1.8 million in losses. That’s kind of amazing.

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I bought this book, The Good Girl’s Guide To Bad Girl Sex by Barbara Keesling. It’s very interesting. Very eye-opening. So far it’s all about how women shouldn’t be ashamed of their sexual appetites and desires. This particularly stuck with me:

“Do you apologize for having a physical appetite? For needing to eat? Your physical appetite is a naturally occurring and integral part of who you are as a human being. Not only is it vital to your survival, but hopefully, it is also a source of pleasure and enjoyment for you. … Do you apologize for having a sexual appetite? Do you deny having a sexual appetite? Why? …Why in the world should women be any less “hungry” than men? If you think about it in biological terms, it doesn’t make any sense that we would be less hungry; any more so than we should experience any fewer hunger pains when faced with a shortage of food.” – pg. 10

I so look forward to reading the rest of this book :)